Disillusionment of Your World

people tell me to

open up and let it out

but when I speak up

it seems they all run away

I don’t mean to harm

your comfy and naive world

the world you crafted

that shuts out those who feel things

those who speak freely

those who don’t fit in a box

we are not perfect

I sure as hell don’t pretend

that I don’t suffer

some extraordinary pain

unseen by others

but when you deny this pain

ignore the feelings

painted clearly on my face

you deny yourself

a true and real existence

you deny yourself

empathy, love and kindness

when you need it most

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Anxious Livin’ is No Livin’ At All

heavily breathing

turns into 

holding my breath for so long

turns into

not breathing at all

 

realizing I’m clenching tight

my hands and my toes

tongue’s glued to the top of my mouth

lips feel wired shut

 

head down to avoid looking

to ignore the stares

from those who

just don’t get it

my thoughts run wild

from school to work to dinner

such trivial things

what’s gonna happen?

what will tomorrow be like?

frantic thinking now

start to think of the future

consciously aware

of the panic setting in

where will I be then?

my goals? a relationship?

will I have children?

will I ever get married?

I think about everything

now, and all at once

panicking, I just

shut down

back to the present

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Write, Release, Repeat

Please put that damned pen down”

 

Go talk to someone”

 

not realizing writing helps

 

I don’t want to talk

 

don’t want to sit in a chair

 

just to talk about

 

emotional attachment

 

just to see someone judge me 

 

for not moving on

 

to feel awkward when I cry

 

I’d rather write down

 

the way I feel, without shame

 

without the stigma

 

of someone from the outside

 

forcing themselves to dig in

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The Discourse of Us

if I could go back in time

 

I’d choose not to leave

 

the quiet town that was home

 

the place I miss most

 

if I could go back in time

 

I would not meet you

 

I can’t imagine that life

 

one that is peaceful

 

a life without the heartbreak

 

without questioning my worth

 

the life I wish I had now

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The Same Old Song

Wandering about

 

Thinking aloud

 

Arms up ready to shout

 

Falling to the ground

 

A rush of pain

 

Slow and hot like a flame

 

Shirt torn, jeans stained

 

Am I the one to blame?

 

Pushing off the ground

 

Trying to reflect but nothing is found

 

Feeling remorseful and not so proud

 

What am I doing wrong?

 

Still the same old song

 

Why can’t I break free from the hurt?

 

I yell as my feet stomp the earth

 

Running and running away

 

It’s all I know; its even harder to stay

 

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No Good Answers

Why do we hold onto things that make us sad?

Talk to those who make us mad?

Why do we look for happiness in others?

When we know it’ll only cause us to suffer?

Why do we put someone else’s needs ahead of our own?

Is it because we believe it’ll help out self love grow?

Why do we stay with people who don’t care?

Is it because we just want someone, anyone, to be there?

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A Battle Within Myself

I care so much for others

To the point where I become a bother

I feel everyone’s pain; I’m too empathetic

Yet I’m numb to my own; it’s deeply embedded

I can love anyone despite what they’ve overcome

To love myself, though, has been the hardest thing I’ve done

 

 

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