Tag: Emotions

Anxious Livin’ is No Livin’ At All

heavily breathing

turns into 

holding my breath for so long

turns into

not breathing at all

 

realizing I’m clenching tight

my hands and my toes

tongue’s glued to the top of my mouth

lips feel wired shut

 

head down to avoid looking

to ignore the stares

from those who

just don’t get it

my thoughts run wild

from school to work to dinner

such trivial things

what’s gonna happen?

what will tomorrow be like?

frantic thinking now

start to think of the future

consciously aware

of the panic setting in

where will I be then?

my goals? a relationship?

will I have children?

will I ever get married?

I think about everything

now, and all at once

panicking, I just

shut down

back to the present

The Same Old Song

Wandering about

 

Thinking aloud

 

Arms up ready to shout

 

Falling to the ground

 

A rush of pain

 

Slow and hot like a flame

 

Shirt torn, jeans stained

 

Am I the one to blame?

 

Pushing off the ground

 

Trying to reflect but nothing is found

 

Feeling remorseful and not so proud

 

What am I doing wrong?

 

Still the same old song

 

Why can’t I break free from the hurt?

 

I yell as my feet stomp the earth

 

Running and running away

 

It’s all I know; its even harder to stay

 

Broken

Her heart feels like it hasn’t been whole

 

A piece of her went missing some time ago

 

Things that once brought her joy don’t matter much now

 

She’s rarely happy; on her face she wears a permanent frown

 

Maintaining relationships has become somewhat of a chore

 

She enjoys her solitude, but her friends think she’s a bore

 

Getting out of bed most days seems like an impossible task

 

Unwilling to face the world, she puts on a cheerful mask

 

She tries to cover her scars and hide her emotions

 

Not wanting to show how badly she is broken